Impending Doom... or is it?

So, I'll admit it.  The nerves are setting in about Monday.  It is worse than impending childbirth the first time round when everyone has bombarded you with advice and how they got on with it and what happened to them and what they would have done differently, plus there are all the other side effects or things that could happen that you can't help but think about and worry about (just a little bit).  Yet you have no idea how it is going to affect you or how your body is going to react to it so you feel completely out of control of the situation. 
I have therefore decided with Ian that come Monday, a friend of ours who has been through exactly this twice is going to take me for my first chemo session.  The main reason is that she will have a better idea of what is going on, what the routine is and what to expect.  The other reason, although this should probably be the main one, is that I am less likely to shout at her than I am Ian.  I hate to admit it but nerves make me shout.  At Ian. 
In the meantime, I feel like I should be running around like a mad thing preparing frantically for immobility, nausea and impending doom. Either I can't face up to it and am in serious denial that I am going to feel bad or my fore thoughts are correct and life is just going to carry on, with tired days.  Nice idea.  Let's keep the fingers crossed on that one.
I have had my hair cut to less than one inch in length in an attempt to prepare myself for having no hair.  When Ian asked the oncologist if anyone ever kept their hair without the cold cap he shook his head.  Refusing to believe this Ian queried him again - ever the optimist - but was quickly set straight as the doctor pointed out that in 9.9 of 10 cases the patient loses their hair.  The 0.1 is there as the "medical get out clause" caused by randomness.  On a no hair theme - the TV is on as I type and there is yet another advert running for the "no-no hair removal system".  Not sure I'll be wasting any money on that for a while...  But seriously, it's negative advertising calling your product No-no, surely? Why would you buy something that told you not to?  Quite apart from it sounding like a type of torture.  It plucks your hair out!!  How is that less painful than waxing???  As I say, not a problem for me for the rest of this year!  I may miss my eyebrows but that is a small price to pay for not having to shave my legs or anywhere else for that matter.  I can always draw them on if I become that bothered.  My eyebrows, that is.