I am sitting here with a woolly hat on. That's it, the hair is all gone - most of it has fallen out and the rest? Well let's just say that the clippers have had an outing. There is only so much patchiness I can put up with! Plus, whenever I put a hat on it pulled the hair in so many directions it was almost like having needles sticking into my head. Feels so much better now.
I have been worried about losing my hair, not just from the point of not having any but also because it going will highlight the fact that I have a rather large scar on the right side of my head (which used to be my biggest scar, now overtaken by the one on my chest, obviously) and I thought it would be really obvious. It turns out, now I can see it, that it is not so bad after all. Plus I do feel I will never again worry about it showing through my hair (when it grows back).
Poppy keeps wanting me to show everyone that my hair has fallen out - I may as well not be wearing a hat! No. That would be too chilly...
Having decreed that I was not going to wear scarves and preferred the idea of a range of funky hats I have had to realise that hats are all well and good when you have hair to bulk them out and hold them in place. Nowadays they just slide down over my eyes constantly causing minor issues when carrying out everyday tasks. Such as driving. Tricky!
I have found a wonderful website thanks to a recommendation from the friend of a friend who went through this last year. Ana Bandanna. Started up through necessity when a family member went through chemotherapy hair loss and couldn't find any reasonably priced scarves on the market. Once again, it would appear that the instant you put an unavoidable need such as disability in front of something the majority of suppliers take it as an opportunity to double the price. My point? If one firm can produce bandannas and scarves for £5-£7 a time why does another firm feel the need to charge £15-£20 for a similar item? Yes, I know, quality of material etc etc will make a difference but for goodness' sake! The same goes for disability aids. With this, yes I appreciate the research and development that has to go into these things but if they made things more affordable they would sell more of them and make the same amount of money. This method of thinking is why I will never be an entrepreneur and make millions.
Apologies for the rant. Am feeling cross with social services for constantly moving the goal posts and only running Poppy's carers one month at a time meaning we have to have constant meetings with people over whether the care will continue to run beyond this month and whether we will be left high and dry with no help during chemo.
Oh well. Will have to wait and see what they say when they ring back this time...
In the meantime I am going to go and seek out a nice woolly hat to wear. The one that came with the new tractor seems comfy so apologies to the fashionistas if you see me walking around with a beanie with a picture of a tractor on the front but comfort before vanity at the moment I'm afraid!
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